disliked, humble love

Chapter 93 Copy

Zhu Jie listened, time began to run backwards on him, and he returned to the age of 5 in an instant, watching the woman on the bed turn into a bird yearning for freedom, and fell off the balcony without hesitation.

He really didn't hesitate at all, he didn't even look back at himself for the last time.Even now, Zhu Jie didn't dare to let Xue Ye and Zhu Mo go to the balcony, standing by the French window, he wanted to drag them back.

"It's a good life, but I have to divorce your father." Fan Wanguo sighed, "It's all caused by homosexuality, I didn't watch her."

There are 5 people in the ward, Chen Qi, grandpa, special nurse, and Zhu Jie himself, surrounding the most important one.

"How is my mother?" Zhu Jie asked the special nurse.

"It's quite quiet, and the indicators are good." The special nurse is a male nurse, because long-term bedridden patients need to turn over every half an hour and need two hours of massage in the morning and afternoon.

The muscles of both legs are atrophied, but they are round and fat. It is a kind of puffiness caused by perennial nasal thorns and gastrostomy injected with full nutrient solution. It is so heavy that the female special nurse can't lift it up.

Zhu Jie hugged her once and helped grandpa change mother's anti-decubitus air mattress.

Bedridden for 14 years, only had one bed sore, a small one.Later, Zhu Jie didn't dare to hug him again, for fear that he might throw him off.

The bed sore was very small, but very red, and it had to be thrown away within 8 hours after using an expensive artificial skin healing patch.

"If you don't look back, you will end up with your mother." Fan Wanguo took off his mask, his face covered in sweat, "Your mother was killed by a gay woman!"

Mom was murdered by a gay woman.Zhu Jie wanted to go over and touch her hand, but he didn't dare. His hands were completely different from Zhao Xue's. They were so round that even the knuckle lines were almost invisible.

"You said, is homosexuality a cancer in the world?" Fan Wanguo was in great pain, and he didn't pretend.

He has struggled all his life in the field of mental illness to correct consciousness deviations, but mental illness has killed his beloved daughter and his grandson.

"She lived with my dad, and she never had a happy day." Zhu Jie's voice was not loud, and for the first time, he refuted his grandfather when he questioned him.

"That's because she doesn't want to live a good life with your father, and she is still messing around outside after getting married!" Fan Wanguo was startled, "Did that Xue Ye teach you to say these words?"

"It's none of his business." Zhu Jie's steady voice began to fluctuate, which surprised Fan Wanguo.Because of Xue Ye, his grandson and himself were angry.

Zhu Jie's complexion seemed to be clouded: "Before my mother divorced, there was not a day when she didn't quarrel with my father. Zhao Xue and my father just lived together. If it wasn't for me, they would have no problems!"

"It's your mother who doesn't want to live a good life with Zhu Zhenhai!" Fan Wanguo emphasized again, "Before marriage...she gave birth to you, and she still keeps in touch with that woman!"

Zhu Jie can also memorize the next big lecture, from how his parents met, how Zhu Zhenhai pursued with all his heart, to how his mother didn't know what to do, and finally obeyed the family's arrangement, broke up and got married.After marriage, they had a child soon, but Zhu Jie spent the first few years of his life in the quarrel between his parents every day.

What impressed me the most was Zhu Zhenhai's sentence, Shanshan, your heart is not in this family at all.

Where is the mother's heart?Zhu Jie doesn't know.

His parents quarreled, and Zhu Jie was always troubled by the helplessness in his heart. He used to think that his parents' bad relationship was because of him.Sometimes, my mother would disappear for several days, and when my father's work rose, their cold war spread to Zhu Jie, and the cold war lasted for several years.

I grew up in a cold and violent environment, and thought that these mistakes were all caused by myself. As long as I was obedient and didn't make noise, make noise, or make noise, the family could be quiet and there would be no more quarrels.

Gradually, Zhu Jie began to care about his parents' faces and everyone's opinions, to be a sensible and good son, and to make them happy.

It didn't work. I was still divorced when I was 5 years old. Not long after, my mother jumped off the building.It was from that day on that Zhu Jie knew that his parents were at odds and had nothing to do with him.

Because my mother has a lover outside, a woman.It was homosexual disease that caused her to jump off a building, caused them to divorce, and caused him to lose his home. He hated homosexuality to death.Grandpa is right, homosexuality is a cancer of the world, everyone should die.

Stop caring what other people think.

A few years later, my father remarried, and Zhao Xue lived in the house instead of my mother.She and Zhu Zhenhai don't quarrel, they like each other, they cook and eat together, watch TV with her, and help her find a swimming coach.But the better they are, the more Zhu Jie hates them. Children less than 10 years old are already full of hatred, and hate the world strongly and truly.

He doesn't like the world, and the world doesn't like him.

"Think about it carefully, and make up for the treatment in the next few days." Fan Wanguo instructed the special nurses to take precautions and left Zhu Jie in the ward.

Let him watch from a young age how homosexuals kill themselves, alas.

After a moment of silence, Zhu Jie said to Chen Qi: "My grandfather asked you to monitor me? No need, my mother is lying here."

The vegetative person lying here is the chain that holds Zhu Jie, making him come back again and again.

Chen Qi neither shook his head nor nodded.

"I'm addicted to cigarettes. If you want to monitor me, follow me." Zhu Jie went to the sterilization room to take off the cover, went to the window sill and tried to push it, and it was sealed.

Can only go to the bathroom to smoke.While lighting a cigarette, he heard footsteps.

"Professor Fan said that you are an athlete and cannot smoke." Chen Qi stopped a few steps away.

"Puff a few more times, go back and quit with your boyfriend." Zhu Jie took a deep breath, "Do you smoke?"

Chen Qi rejected it very standardly: "This is a medical and nursing place, and it stands to reason that the entire building is a non-smoking area. Professor Fan..."

"Do you believe my grandpa's theory?" Zhu Jie asked suddenly.

Chen Qi closed his mouth again, and changed his eyes like a researcher's.Still no shaking his head or nodding.

Zhu Jie blew out a smoke ring. It doesn't look good when he smokes himself, and the smoke ring can't be round. Xue Ye smokes beautifully, and the cigarette butt shines brightly.But no matter how good-looking it is, I forced him to quit after returning home.

"The year my mother gave birth to me happened to be the most violent years for homosexuality." Zhu Jie said, and the smoke circle gradually faded, "Grandpa told me before that those people were influenced by Western culture. Toxic, no teaching or treatment, soon there will be a place where they will be allowed to marry and mess around."

Chen Qi opened a small window to let out the smell of smoke.

"Grandpa's house is just a pennant and a letter of thanks, and a room is specially set aside for decoration." Zhu Jie lowered his head, pure black basketball shoes, Xue Ye doesn't like black, he likes bright ones.

Xue Ye had a pair of close-fitting sports shorts, purple and pink, which were very short, and they were confiscated by himself after wearing them only once.

"Professor Fan is really powerful." Chen Qi is very serious, "I am a student of his students, not only in the correction of sexual orientation disorders, but also in the treatment of schizophrenia, depression and delusions of persecution. Your grandfather has saved countless families."

"Yes, I have read a lot of thank you letters. He saved so many people and drove my mother to death." Zhu Jie's voice was indifferent and fierce, "My mother is gay, so he was afraid that I would be affected. Check that I was in the third year of junior high school."

Chen Qi was taken aback for a moment, but the age at which sexual consciousness sprouts has been advancing, and it has already advanced to 12 years old. "The results of it?"

"You should know about the inspection, right?" Zhu Jie was wearing a simple black T-shirt and jeans, smoking a cigarette.

"I know, the excited areas of the brain can't deceive people, this is science." Chen Qi replied, "If you are shown pictures, texts, and sound effects that suggest homosexual behavior, and then undergo precise scanning and thinking judgments, you can indeed judge a person. a person's sexual orientation."

"Yeah." Zhu Jie nodded, "Tell me, did I inherit it from my mother?"

"Strictly speaking, it's possible." Chen Qi still looks like a doctoral student, and he answered the question with a straight line, "8% to 25% of the tested gene mutations overlap in the variation of same-sex sexual behavior, and some overlap between males and females. That is to say, it is inherited regardless of sex, and the variations found in male and female genetic samples are not exactly the same."

Zhu Jie narrowed his eyes: "I don't understand."

Chen Qi smiled suddenly: "There is indeed a genetic root cause. 32.4% of the relevant variables come from genes, but genes do not constitute the whole cause. The influence of control. Professor Fan took you for an examination, which has a scientific basis. You didn't know your orientation until after the examination?"

Zhu Jie shook his head, no one had ever explained to him why he likes boys. "One year before the examination, I had a feeling that I was interested in boys. But I felt disgusted and scared. I was afraid that homosexuality would kill me, and I was also afraid that my grandpa would be disappointed. I couldn't bear this blow."

"Do you care what other people think?"

"Why should I care what other people think?" Zhu Jie cut off the cigarette.

Don't ask Chen Qi, most of these children are gentle and sensitive by nature, but the rich emotions strengthen the emotions he receives, and if they are not careful, they will walk on Fan Shanshan's old path.

"So, Professor Fan's treatment didn't help you at all?"

"No." Zhu Jie stretched his hand out of the window. The wind was cold. Xue Ye must have slept by now. He must have eaten instant noodles for dinner. "In my first year of high school, I should have died. My mother was tragic. I carefully considered how to die, and the first thing I ruled out was jumping off the building. I was afraid that I would not die if I fell, and I would fall like my mother and continue to live without dignity."

Chen Qi began to guard against him, preventing him from doing self-harm. "It shouldn't be. I have seen your treatment records, and it has been improving. Including your brain scan and behavior modification, and you have had a girlfriend."

"Behavior modification is to suppress sexual desire, and the more you suppress it, the more you can't suppress it. My girlfriend... pretends. I don't pretend. He and my dad will transfer me to another school." Zhu Jie closed the window casually, "I cooperate with the treatment, but these days I have to see my mother every day."

After speaking, Zhu Jie washed his hands and returned to the sterilization room.Stepping into the isolation ward again, the woman on the bed is always quiet.

When I first became a vegetative state, my mother's eyes were all closed, and then slowly there was a gap.Zhu Jie thought she was about to wake up, but later learned that such a phenomenon occurs in patients who have been in a coma for a long time, and it is impossible to wake up.

But he always felt that she knew everything, and every time he squatted on the edge of the bed for a while, the heart rate on the monitor would be faster.

Zhu Jie asked the special guard to rest, sat down, and shook that hand.He forgot his mother's original appearance, but remembered that his mother sang very badly, her five notes were incomplete, and she always liked to sing.

"Mom, Xiaoye is finally my boyfriend."

"Mom, Xiaoye's parents are gone."

On February 2th, the winter training of the Sports Academy officially started. Tao Wenchang prepared a set of warm-ups in advance and waited for the white team to gather.Zhu Jie seems to have evaporated in the past few days, if he said he would not contact him, he would really not contact him, and he would not send half a word to Xue Ye.

Xue Ye is the only person in the world who can fall in love with him.Tao Wenchang was dying of anxiety, but Xue Ye not only was not in a hurry, he took physical therapy and rehabilitation on time every day, took Zhu Mo to buy vegetables and cook, and even let him go home to eat.

Sesame oil white noodles, extremely unpalatable.Don't dare to touch at home, who knows which corner will leave traces of the two people's love?

But why did Zhu Jie go?I haven't come back for so many days... Just as I was thinking, a vertical line of pure black appeared at the entrance of the track and field.

Tall, with a black T-shirt and basketball shorts above the knees, black basketball shoes, and the ever-changing black sports bag.Tao Wenchang was excited, Zhu Jie is back?

You fucking know how to come back!He cursed with emotion, and just about to speak, his heart went cold.

Xue Ye.Entering the entrance of the track and field field, facing the training team of the first field team, separated by 5 orange tracks, everyone is looking at Xue Ye.But Tao Wenchang believed that at that moment just now, everyone, like him, mistook Xue Ye for Zhu Jie.

With Zhu Jie's huge sports bag on his shoulders, he walked to the runway alone, sat down in a corner where no one put his things, and began to adjust the ankle brace.

"That's Xue Ye?" Bai Yang almost called the wrong person, "I thought it was Zhu Jie. Why, he came to practice long jump?"

"No." Tao Wenchang gritted his teeth, he didn't intend to jump long.Sure enough, Xue Ye took out a pair of custom-made running shoes from his brother Jie's bag, black with red stripes.

Zhu Jie's combat shoes for playing games.

He changed into it, and then started to warm up with a small jump on the spot, slowly walking towards the white starting line.He put the phone on the spot, probably turned on the timer, bent down, touched the ground with his hands, raised his thighs, looked ahead, jumped out, and ran into a black silhouette.

"Damn, it's okay." Bai Yang admired, as if he saw that all-powerful long jumper again, "Xue Ye is also very skilled in track competition."

"Because he followed Zhu Jie in the middle-distance running for three years." Tao Wenchang said, seeing that Xue Ye only ran 400 meters, he started to accelerate and sprint.

The moment he sprinted, he stretched his arms slightly, and he was in exactly the same posture as Zhu Jie. Regardless of his hairstyle, he was almost alone.One of the two-headed snakes temporarily left, and the other began to reproduce.

Bai Yang held a whistle in his mouth: "The speed is fine, why did he start running today?"

"Let him run away." Tao Wenchang said.The black shadow in the distance was adjusting his breathing. After warming up, he repeated the 1500-meter middle-distance running in a standing start position.

Xue Ye is practicing Zhu Jie's project.

A thousand tons of weight weighed on Tao Wenchang's heart.Damn it, Zhu Jie, come back quickly, a few days later, Xue Ye may have to shave his waist.

The author has something to say:

Brother Jie will be back in the next chapter, the obstacles in love are cleared away, Jieye ushers in a happy life, love and career are both harvested, and the men behind Xiaoye spring up one after another like mushrooms after rain.By the way, do you all agree that Xiaoye should shave an inch?

This chapter answers several questions that have been asked:

1. Why did grandpa take Jay Cub for examination?Because the heredity of homosexuality has a scientific basis (the data cited in the article is taken from a subject published in the journal Science by the University of Queensland, Australia)

2. Why did Jay Cub agree to the treatment?Because he once really thought it was a disease, fear, hatred, and wanted to go back to see his mother.

3. Will Jay Cub's personality get better in the future?No, he has already been stereotyped, and he has not developed at all at the age of establishing three views and emotional responses.